Monday Random on Tuesday: time

  • In catch-up mode, I can do no less than to write a Monday post and be humble about it, rather than let it go another week yet
  • I know that would bother me more
  • I still must write a #CinemaShame post that was due December 31, so I am actually feeling pretty good about myself for this one!
  • I feel fine in the sense that I am stressed as all get out, but the sun is out and man, if I can’t springboard off that and the 60F+ temps today, I’m useless!

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They keep telling me it is a virus

I think I have a fever
something in my head blurring my vision
I am dizzy and staggering
walking into the kitchen for another liter of water
the last one
evaporating off me in clouds
the fog filling up the first floor of the house

It might be the flu
keeping me down when I need to keep running
every memory
conjured up and at war with my will
every bite I eat
fighting with my other bodily processes
so I cannot get from A to B

Searching for a miracle cure
I read everything
struggling with temptation
remorse, regret, and reservations
all the trip-ups and cock-ups
that dog my steps
reminding me I have failed

all the pets
that I have ever owned
follow me
in a long, serpentine parade


Two hours
I have been reading instead of writing
because my tank feels empty

Two hours
left to accomplish a goal that takes five
oh grief, let me be

Two hours
lazy and sucking down eggstoast and coffee
feelin’ guilty about

Two hours more, to
take a walk
read three chapters
write a letter, do my hair
and show up looking
like there is life

in here